Welcome to the wonderful world of...

CARE BEARS. Now, just wait a min... I'm not gay neither do I like care bears. But Jasmine loves them. You know, typical girl stuff... care bears and my little ponies and stuff like that. Anyway... I know she's busy at work... so I thought I'll put this up to entertain her at work.

Words that are joined together, forms a sentence.

Your pain is the breaking of the shell
that encloses your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break,that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder
at the daily miracles of your life, your pain
would not seem less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your
heart, even as you have always accepted
the seasons that pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity
through the winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which the
physician within you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician, and drink
his remedy in silence and tranquillity:

For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided
by the tender hand of the Unseen,
And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips,
has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter
has moistened with His own sacred tears.


- Kahlil Gibran

Mission Accomplished?

Many people go through a very routine and mediocre life. Go to school, get a degree, get a job, get married, start a family and live life happily ever after. I don't know if I can do that. My life so far has been relatively routine. I've been to school, I've got a full time job, am currently perusing my degree and currently in a wonderful relationship. However, I have pursued a few extra activities that has occupied a lot of my time. There are 2 things that I hold closest to my heart. They are:



1. Achieved my basic open water diving certification.
2. Achieved my level 1 climbing certification.



I know they may not be the greatest of achievements but I'm proud of them anyway. But there is a current wish list that I have that I want to complete within the next 2yrs.

1. Get my advance diver certification.
2. Get my rescue diver certification.
3. Get my level 2 climbing certification.
4. Get my climbing instructor certification.
5. Complete my degree in Mass Comm.

I know these things may sound very trivial to most of you. Many of you may even ask who bother with such things as climbing or diving. This may be due because you have never tried scuba diving or rock climbing. My life has always been sports and outdoor related activities. I love the outdoors. Sitting in an air-conditioned office everyday from 9 till 5 is boring to me. I admit, I don't have much of a choice as we all need to earn a living, but I get really restless being stuck in an office all the time. I need to go out and have fun. Many of my friends at work unwind after a hard days work by going out for a couple of beers or to a karaoke. Me? I climb. I run. I play soccer. This is my life. I book weekend trips to go diving. I love it! Maybe one day, if I'm lucky, I can open up a company that caters outdoor activities to people. Train them and teach them how to have fun.

Well, these dreams/ambitions might come true one day. But right now, I just have to carry on the daily routines of life. Working full time, studying part time and having FUN ALL THE TIME!!!

Solitude

Have you ever had the feeling that you're all alone. Sure, your friends and family are physically present but some how you feel so alone. Its like no one else can see or hear you. No one understands anymore. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. For the last one week, I've been feeling quite down. I don't know how or why it started. I feel like I'm all alone. No one understands me. Even the people who are very close to me seem distant. Like all of a sudden there is this invisible barrier between us. I feel so lost. I feel like the people around me are disappointed in me. They are unhappy with me about something. No one has said or done anything but I get this vibe from the people around me that they aren't exactly too pleased with me. Be it my attitude, behavior or actions. I really don't know. Am I paranoid? I'm not too sure. Am I reading too much between the lines? Am I being over sensitive? I don't know anymore. I can hardly get a good night's sleep. Keep tossing and turning in bed thinking. Thinking about what you ask. I wish I knew. Maybe I've been over stressed about my exams, work and stuff at home. Maybe I'm wound up too tight. I need a break. I need a holiday. But I cannot. Not at the moment at least. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe tomorrow I will find the answers to my questions.

From the ashes.

Every product has a certain life span. A life cycle if you want to call it. There is the birth of a product. Something new. The product then grows. Soon it reaches maturity. Before you know it death is knocking on your front door. When this happens, we call it a life cycle. So just like my old blog, it was born, grew and matured and finally it has died. And from its ashes, a new face has emerged. I know you might be thinking, this is a very plain blog. No fancy pictures or quotes. But it is what I was looking for. Plain and simple. Something that gave more priority to what I was writing and saying instead of the fancy blogs where we can click on the little tags to go see different pages. This blog is for you to see me. To give my writing and opinions more room. Easier to read. More space to work with. Anyhow, this is my new blog page. Simple as it is, I think it fits my needs perfectly. Welcome to the grand Opening of my New and simpler Blog!!!

Colour me not.

I am trying to learn how to edit and play around with pictures on my computer. Unfortunately I still have not purchased the photoshop software as it is too bloody expensive. Anyway, I took a simple picture of myself and tried to play around with the limited stuff that I have on my computer.
*side note, for those of you who are well-versed with graphics and designs pls don't laugh. everyone has to start somewhere right?

Accepting but unsatisfied.

keep me from drowning

My mind is in a state of confusion. I'm unable to comprehend the actions of others. Is it just me? Am I procrastinating my very own existence? I want so much but yet I stand still. My feet refuse to move another step. I think about things so much and I know what is needed of me yet I dare not. How can that be? I've prided myself in being able to adjust and accommodate changes yet the smallest test of faith leaves me quaking.
I wished for something. I made my request known. But now, that I've gotten what I wanted, I feel less worthy. It is as if my weakness over powered me in accepting it. No, it was not my weakness. It was my emotions. I felt bad accepting it. Did I really deserve it? The bearers of my gift gave me my request willingly, but made me know that I need to improve. My life needs to be bucked up, they said.
I feel ashamed. I feel like I do not deserve it. I know my life needs to be improved. Part of me tells knows very well what I need to do but I am still stuck here. As if my feet were cemented to the ground. I cannot move. I dare not move. I am scared. I am not afraid of the challenges. I'm petrified of the final out come.
Someone please help me. Lend me a jack hammer. Break this concrete that has held me in this position for so long. I want to be free. To soar once again, like I used to do many life-times ago.

Birthdays are FUN!

Haha... I just want to thank all of my friends for all their best wishes on my birthday! Thank you! Thank you to my parents too. Without them I won't be here. And of course, thanks Jas!!!